Holla people, it's just one of those days when i'm feeling super duper down and one of the reasons is my current weight gain :-/
Feels damn uncomfortable, like this isn't my body anymore.Sigh. Still under therapy but hope everything goes well *fingers crossed* Yes, i'm super negative, so positive people avoid me at all cost if you don't the negative bug :-P
Saw a friend posted this on facebook a few days ago, so I decided to take the test myself just for the fun of it. Well, lookie here :-D
They aren't so stupid after all, true i'm bipolar (it sucks, but that is my "determination" button)
Well this sums everything up! #dielaughme
|Major Depression:||Very High|
|Seasonal Affective Disorder:||High|
|Take the Depression Test|
Take your "Depression Test" here: http://www.depressedtest.com/
Note: If you really think that you are clinically depressed, please do seek for professional treatment ya! Not this online test -_-;; It's just for fun.
Another reason is because I can't fit in any of my size 0 (XS) clothes anymore :-( Easy for you people to say "go buy new clothes la!" Heck like i will. I'm stubborn and i know this weight condition is temporary, hopefully i can get fit and start eating oil again. There are tons of food i would like to try making all thanks to this website: http://www.eatingwell.com/
It takes a hell load of motivation to get out of this depression state, i know no one else can help me except myself. So start slow, and first of all to find a full time job lol :-P
I know that everyone's physical appearance is different so each of us have different amount of food intake and exercises. Another reason why i don't really record my exercise or weight loss regime because results differ for each person and i don't want to demotivate you guys by posting all these exercises techniques that works for me but doesn't work for some of you unless it's proven by majority okay? :-P
I will take note about my progress in mental recovery at the moment so i can eat like a normal person without being so paranoid. Indulge once in a while, be happier. Guess modelling really fucked me up big time :-(
I'm not discouraging you girls to do modelling or anything, you can do it but make sure to just be yourself. Haters will be haters.
That is why i'm proud of my friend Melissa Th'ng the first ever Malaysian representative in Asia's Next Top Model - Cycle 1. This is a genuine inspiring role model, beautiful inside out and true.
Overall, gonna start coming out from my tortoiseshell, stop beating myself up so badly and start working out again :-)
Results don't form overnight, so don't expect miracles.
Well after so much of negativity in this post, here have some motivational pictures :-) My personal favorites (my current phone wallpaper).
Cheers. Hope i don't do anything stupid soon.