Those who have known, seen or followed my social media postings would have noticed i have anot of scars all over my body.
I've been constantly asked, where does it come from? Was it my cat (Mori)? Am i being abused?
But the answers are always the same- It's neither the cat nor abuse, it's just rashes.
That's is obviously the biggest bullshit i'be ever made up to cover up my bad habit of scratching, my scratching is not like others..i scratch till i bleed and that doesn't stop there, i'll continue to scratch till it's all bloodied over.
Yes it does hurt, but the pain is what i want to feel. The skin and flesh tearing from beneath my nails, the pain that comes with it is my drug to cope with my depression. I've been sad for a very long time, been off my meds almost a year and trying everything i can not to go back to it.
I know my current method is absurd as i am self inflicting injury all over my body but i'll do what it takes to keep myself sane for the time being.
But WHY scratch myself?
Because i am uncomfortable in my own skin, i feel disgusted with what i am seeing in the mirror everyday (since i gained back 15kg). Also i am helping it to show all it's flaws, no more hiding.
And this scars that marks my body are my battle scars.
Doing so, the price i had to pay was the scars that came with the continuous bloody scratching over the months, it has upgraded over the years from my torso to my collarbone, neck, back and recent addition this year arm my arms and thighs.
And the questions still continues...Sometimes i just don't know how to face or answer people anymore, i'll wear long baggy clothings to cover my markings so i can avoid those questions. It's not easy to just say " i did them myself, so quit asking me".
But over the months i noticed as more and more scars build on my skin, there seems to be no more place for newer ones, i'll think back and reflect..should i stop?
Is this all worth it?
What is to happen to my scars now?
So i've decided it's time for them to go..to let go of my painful obsession but scars doen't just disappear on it's own. Not only it takes time to heal but healing on it's own without help is only to a certain extend. That is why i've decided to share my story on how i overcome my scars, using Bio Oil.
Most people would assume Bio Oil is just used by pregnant women or those who have just given birth and need something to help with their stretch marks, but this oil does much more that just those.
It helps to reduce scars overall by 70% with daily usage and my experience with it is a living proof.
Remember the neck area that's always plague with markings?
Now it's close to gone because i've been using Bio Oil for quite some time, and when they contacted me to share my review, was more than glad to participate.
Within 2 months+ of usage.
I can only say this miracle in a bottle works wonders.
And if you have unwanted childhood scars on your knees (itchy hands, we all had that problem lol), or accident scars just pick up a bottle of Bio Oil and apply them on the affected area daily twice a day. It might be oil based, but it's unique formula and absorbency rate is fast that you barely feel any oiliness upon applying it. Plus it smells really good thanks to it's natural fragrance obtained buy their plant based ingredients Lavender, Chamomile, Rosmary and Calendula.
So those who don't feel confident with their scars, uneven skintone and even dry skin (patchy areas) can consider this product, i have many friends who swears by this product too. To be frank skin problems it's not something you can easily hide or heal overnight but with proper care and products things can get better. All it needs is a chance to work it's magic :)
Some might say this bottle, 60ml (their largest) is rather pricey and not enough to use but it's not meant fore whole body, just targeted areas you would like to fix.
If you have a story or experience with Bio Oil, do share with me & www.myscarmystory.com.my!
I would love to see how it has changed your lives too :)
And if you like other oil based products, you can read my post HERE. They are from the same mother company as Bio Oil by the way, in case you didn't know ;-)